Leaves me quiet...

As summer quietly comes to a close, I find myself growing quiet too. Life doesn't come with long explanations sometimes and I find myself walking through it, doing the next thing while trusting that God is doing something bigger through my very small moments.

This year I am homeschooling 6 grade levels. I find that thinking about it is not the best idea. Thinking causes nausea and headaches. ;) It's best to just *do it!* It's one Math lesson, one History chapter, one handwriting page at a time. It's each child learning to wait for me to finish one thing so I can assist them with their *next thing*. It's learning to give one another preference, learning to be quiet so others can focus, learning to think and discover on one's own sometimes. It's where we bump into each other all day and I hope and pray there are diamonds being formed within the pressure and bumping. Each day we try to make every piece of ground holy ground...it leaves me quiet...

We make time for ministry outside the home. It's important to me for many reasons. I want to be part of growing God's Kingdom, to disciple my children by *showing them* a life lived for Christ. Life is busy. You've got to shove things over and make room for what you want your life to look like, you know? With a team of friends, I am working on coordinating small groups in our church. I am praying that we would, as a church, full on make disciples who make disciples. And that out of that, God's Kingdom would grow and churches would be planted. I pray for God to move and move big and take my town and area and state and world for Him. It's nothing a team of 4 women can do. Only God can...it leaves me quiet...

With a team of 9 women and teens who represent some of the closest friends I have in the world, I leave in 3 weeks for a missions trip to Nicaragua. Any time I think too hard about Nicaragua I cry...I am trusting God will help me pull it together when I lay my eyes on Nicaragua again. I pray that God shows me what I am specifically there to do and I pray for the boldness to do it. Often we think of the idea of loving the "least of these." As I consider just who that is I can't help but think that we are all "the least". The things that make us all alike far outweigh the things that make us different... I want to squeeze every drop out of that week and leave nothing undone and leave no room for regrets. It leaves me quiet...

"Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for Him..." ~Psalm 37:7