Saturday, April 27, 2013

And So My Heart Breaks

A picture of "Abandon"

The least, the lost, the lonely, the left behind, the left out...

The eyes of my heart dart from place to place, need to need, hurt to hurt... I don't know what to do next, you know? So much hurt and need in the world. Once my eyes were opened, it's impossible to shut them again. And why would I want to? 

In my last post , I mentioned going to a Faith Forum to hear more about Safe Families of Maine . Safe Families connects hurting, isolated people with loving people in churches. They provide a connection that NEEDS TO BE MADE. It seems like we shouldn't need such an organization, but in this busy mixed up world, we really do!

For example, why did I have NO IDEA that there are over 100 homeless teenagers in my school district?? Those with that kind of information are bound by privacy laws. The families themselves who are needing help are bound by ISOLATION. It's a vicious circle. 

I'm not going to lie, it was a tough morning hearing of all the hurt and honestly feeling a little helpless. Am I at the brim of what I can do or is there more? (Welcome to the front row of my wandering mind!)

Here is my prayer:
"The LORD will guide you always; he will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land and will strengthen your frame. You will be like a well-watered garden, like a spring whose waters never fail." Isaiah 58:11

I want to be "like a spring whose waters never fail!" That spring always has a refreshing drink ready for the thirsty!! Oh, God, I want that!! 

I pray God will help me FOCUS and not WASTE TIME! I want to discern His will, where He wants me at each moment! I want to share hope without fear of rejection. I want to help those who need help. I want to teach my kids what following God with reckless abandon looks like. God, please get me there before I'm dead! I want to get rid of "I"!!

The warning to myself this week has been to not be so busy looking around at hurt that I do nothing about it. My prayer has been to not waste time doing the things I am not called to do that I miss what I AM called to do! 

I'm just so thankful to be surrounded by awesome friends pondering over the same questions, ready to take action, already taking action. And we remind each other that seeking God always precedes service to God. The things we do for God are not more important than our pursuit of God Himself. 

"But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well." ~Matt. 6:33

Only God can give us the ability to be the "spring whose waters never fail." 

When I give God's hope to the hopeless and love the hurting I don't have to ask God to "show up". He's already there, waiting for ME to SHOW UP.

1 comment:

  1. Yes, Karen, It is so hard to know just how much we are supposed to do; and what it is we are supposed to do. But prayer, that is something we always need to do, the putting God first, then all the rest will follow. Good post.


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