Taken by friends while we were waiting for our "referral". :)
I've had a heart for kids with no families for years. But more recently, God OPENED my eyes wider to their reality and with my eyes, my heart was opened. I thought long and hard about what it would feel like to grow up in an orphanage with no parents to advocate for me. I thought about crying myself to sleep with no mommy to snuggle me. I thought about bad things happening to me with no daddy to protect me. I thought about living with memories of abandonment. I thought about being moved from foster home to foster home, feeling abandoned by it over and over... Then there's abuse, neglect, starvation, poverty... There's others making decisions for you that don't always work out very well... There's watching other children being adopted around you and wondering if it will EVER be you...
My heart was broken, thoroughly broken, and I don't ever want it to be healed again.
I also know that others, like me, have a heart and burden for children who need families but they do not yet know how it could be possible for them to adopt or to offer foster care. In the "seeming impossibility", you can let the burden, the call of God, grow dim. You can ignore it. You can forget. I did. I let this burden grow dull for 10+ years. God's timing? Maybe. Maybe not.
So I speak. And I'll keep speaking. I'll remind. They're still there, still praying for a family, still hoping for what seems hopeless.
And I hope as I share my story of finally following God in obedience despite all the "seeming impossibilities" that I will be able to help and encourage those others who are like me and just needing someone to come along beside them and encourage them to put their faith in Jehovah Jireh our Provider, who will provide as we step out in faith. In my weakness I hope to show others that if I can do it, so can they.
One of my greatest joys is talking to other parents considering adoption. We're all in this together.
So I am really am sorry if I am driving anyone crazy, but I just can't stop! I just won't stop! I'm just not SUPPOSED to stop!
"Speak up for those who cannot speak for themselves, for the rights of all who are destitute." Proverbs 31:8